Thank GOD

You spend the beginning of a summer wondering if anything interesting is gonna happen. You spend a spring freaking out because it feels like worlds are falling apart. You spend long days and nights wondering what you've learned from all of the events of the past 6 months. Then, you realize that it's all just too big to understand until you've lived it. You look at where you are at this exact moment:

In the living room of an apartment you signed a lease on less than 3 months ago. You're typing on your computer while sitting on the couch that has now become your HQ. The suitcase is lying about 2 feet away full of all your clothes. You're thinking about all the shit you have to move out of here in a very short time. And then you realize that you don't actually own very much of anything. Just your soul. And finally. FINALLY, that means something to you. That actually feels like enough. Everything is a mess, but you've realized that you'll be ok. You always are...even if you're not.

For a while there. I thought the world was just full of crazies. Not surprisingly, I was wrong. There are actually solid people in the world. Many of them are my friends. Damn, you guys are great.

Saw a production of Shaina Taub's The Daughters, on Thursday evening. Great time. I couldn't hear all of the lyrics all of the time, but it was a crazy setup. And, I mean, when you're performing anything just in front of music stands, you never get the whole grasp of a piece. It's just this raw being, ready to be molded. Good stuff.

I think I've found somewhere to live starting in August. Thank GOD. I was beginning to think that I was straight up screwed. But it's on 181st and Fort Washington in Inwood. Or is it still Washington Heights. Doesn't matter. All I know is that I love it up here. Things are looking up. I'm excited. let's get going.

"It was ever in the desert that the truthful have dwelt."
-Thus Spoke Zarathustra